At the Airport in
Knoxville on April 20, 2005,
Waiting to board the plane, I had the Bible on my lap and was very intent
upon what I was doing. I'd had a marvelous morning with the Lord. I say
that because I want to tell you it is a scary thing to have the Spirit of
God really working in you. You could end up doing some things you never
would have done otherwise. Life in the Spirit can be dangerous for a
thousand reasons not the least of which is your ego. I tried to keep from
staring, but he was such a strange sight. Humped
over in a wheelchair, he was skin and bones, dressed in clothes that
obviously fit when he was at least twenty pounds heavier. His knees
protruded from his trousers, and his shoulders looked like the coat hanger
was still in his shirt. His hands looked like tangled masses of veins
and bones. The strangest part of him was his hair and nails. Stringy gray
hair hung
well over his shoulders and down part of his back. His fingernails were
long, clean but strangely out of place on an old man.
I looked down at my
Bible as fast as I could, discomfort burning my face. As I tried to imagine
what his story might havebeen, I found myself wondering if I'd just had a
Howard Hughes moment. Then, I remembered that he was dead. So this man in
the airport...an impersonator maybe? Was a camera on us somewhere? There I
sat, trying to concentrate on the Word to keep from being concerned about a
thin slice of humanity served on a wheelchair only a few seats from me. All
the while my heart was growing more and more overwhelmed with a feeling for
him. Let's admit it. Curiosity is a heap more comfortable than true
concern, and suddenly I was awash with aching emotion for this
bizarre-looking old man.
I had walked with God long
enough to see the handwriting on the wall. I've learned that when I begin to
feel what God feels, something so contrary to my natural feelings, something
dramatic is bound to happen. And it may be embarrassing. I immediately
began to resist because I could feel God working on my spirit and I
started arguing with God in my mind. "Oh, no, God, please, no." I looked up
at the ceiling as if I could stare straight through it into heaven and said,
"Don't make me witness to this man. Not right here and now. Please. I'll
do anything. Put me on the same plane, but don't make me get up here and
witness to this man in front of this gawking audience. Please, Lord!"
There I sat in the blue
vinyl chair begging His Highness, "Please don't make me witness to this
man. Not now. I'll do it on the plane." Then I heard it... "I don't want
you to witness to him. I want you to brush his hair." The words were
so clear, my heart leapt into my throat, and my thoughts spun like a
top. Do I witness to the man or brush his hair? No-brainer. I looked
straight back up at the ceiling and said, "God, as I live and breathe, I
want you to know I am ready to witness to this man. I'm on this Lord. I'm
you're girl! You've never seen a woman witness to a man faster in your
life. What difference does it make if his hair is a mess if he is not
redeemed? I am on him. I am going to witness to this man." Again as
clearly as I've ever heard an audible word, God seemed to write this
statement across the wall of my mind. "That is not what I said, Beth.
I don't want you to witness to him. I want you to go brush his hair." I
looked up at God and quipped, "I don't have a hairbrush. It's in my
suitcase on the plane. How am I supposed to brush his hair without a
hairbrush?" God was so insistent that I almost involuntarily began to walk
toward him as these thoughts came to me from God's word: "I will thoroughly
furnish you unto all good works." (2 Timothy 3:17) I stumbled over to the
wheelchair thinking I could use one myself.
Even as I retell this story
my pulse quickens and I feel those same butterflies. I knelt down in front
of the man and asked as demurely as possible," Sir, may I have the pleasure
of brushing your hair?" He looked back at me and said, "What did you say?"
"May I have the pleasure of brushing your hair?" To which he responded in
volume ten, "Little lady, if you expect me to hear you, you're going to have
to talk louder than that." At this point, I took a deep breath and blurted
out, "SIR, MAY I HAVE THE PLEASURE OF BRUSHING YOUR HAIR?" At which point
every eye in the place darted right at me. I was the only thing in the room
looking more peculiar than old Mr. Longlocks. Face crimson and forehead
breaking out in a sweat, I watched him look up at me with absolute shock on
his face, and say, "If you really want to." Are you kidding? Of course I
didn't want to. But God didn't seem interested in my personal preference
right about then. He pressed on my heart until I could utter the
words, "Yes, sir, I would be pleased. But I have one little problem. I
don't have a hairbrush." "I have one in my bag," he responded. I went
around to the back of that wheelchair, and I got on my hands and knees and
unzipped the stranger's
old carry-on, hardly believing what I was doing. I stood up and started
brushing the old man's hair. It was perfectly clean, but it was tangled and
matted. I don't do many things well, but I must admit I've had notable
experience untangling knotted hair mothering two little girls. Like I'd done
with either Amanda or Melissa in such a condition, I began brushing at the
very bottom of the strands, remembering to take my time not to pull.
A miraculous thing happened
to me as I started brushing that old man's hair. Everybody else in the room
disappeared. There was no one alive for those moments except that old man
and me. I brushed and I brushed and I brushed until every tangle was out of
that hair. I know this sounds so strange, but I've never felt that kind of
love for another soul in my entire life. I believe with all my heart, I -
for that few minutes - felt a portion of the very love of God. That He had
overtaken my heart for a little while like someone renting a room and making
Himself at home for a short while. The emotions were so strong and so pure
that I knew they had to be God's. His hair was finally as soft and smooth as
an infant's. I slipped the brush back in the bag, went around the chair to
face him. I got back down on my knees, put my hands on his knees, and said,
"Sir, do you know my Jesus?" He said, "Yes, I do." Well, that figures, I
thought. He explained, "I've known Him since I married my bride. She
wouldn't marry me until I got to know the Savior." He said, "You see, the
problem is, I haven't seen my bride in months. I've had open-heart surgery,
and she's been too ill to come see me. I was sitting here thinking to
myself, what a mess I must be for my bride."
Only God knows how often He
allows us to be part of a divine moment when we're completely unaware of the
significance. This, on the other hand, was one of those rare encounters
when I knew God had intervened in details only He could have known. It was
a God moment, and I'll never forget it. Our time came to board, and we were
not on the same plane. I was deeply ashamed of how I'd acted earlier and
would have been so proud to have accompanied him on that aircraft. I still
had a few minutes, and as I gathered my things to board, the airline hostess
returned from the corridor, tears streaming down her cheeks. She said, "That
old man's sitting on the plane, sobbing. Why did you do that? What made you
do that?" I said, "Do you know Jesus? He can be the bossiest thing!" And
we got to share. I learned something about God that day. He knows if
you're exhausted because you're hungry, you're serving in the wrong place or
it is time to move on, but you feel too responsible to budge. He knows if
you're hurting or feeling rejected. He knows if you're sick or drowning
under a wave of temptation. Or He knows if you just need your hair brushed.
He sees you as an individual. Tell Him your need! I got on my own flight,
sobs choking my throat, wondering how many opportunities just like
that one had I missed along the way... all because I didn't want people to
think I was strange. God didn't send me to that old man. He sent that old
man to me.
John 1:14 "The Word became
flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of
the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth." Life
shouldn't be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving
safely in a pretty and well-preserved body, but rather, to skid in
broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly shouting, "Wow!
What a ride! Thank You, Lord!" |